On using your energy

Tonight I am still awake thinking about how I use my energy. I am drained. Its been a tough week teaching (just checking everything ready as I need to), I'm still recovering from a cold, and all the other life stuff that happens. For whatever reason... I have spent all my energy. I am usually not this tired , though, so I am trying to think of where it went. Where did I lose it?

Well, today my high school cross country team had a meet. It was hot out. The course was pretty tough. The competition was steep. The JV kids ran first. It wasn't pretty. Times were slow, efforts wet lacking.

I am usually a calm presence with my JV as most of these kids are nervous and need to calm down. They need a positive but calm energy. I don't usually think about this, I just do it. I can tell they are freaked out and don't need me to get them over excited. They don't need me hopping up and down and yelling. Again, this is something I just do and don't think about. But after their races today I was feeling some bad energy. There was a list of things I could blame it on, but the real reason was I was hoping for better performances. Not for me, but for them. That sounds cliche, but its true. When the kids all have a bad race, I feel that its on me and the training. I knew I needed to shake that feeling off for my varsity. So I actively and consciously changed my energy.

It had cooled a bit outside by this time and I wanted to see some better results because I knew were were capable of more. I ran over to the starting line just before they started gathering the teams for the gun. I didn't yell angrily at them or come up with some silly rah-rah speech, I was just intense and excited and positive. I told them to get after it and get into the battle. They responded. Both varsity teams did really well. We didn't win, but the race was intense and fun to watch.

I don't often think about the energy I am putting out into the world and how it effects others. I have always heard that giving off or possessing positive energy was good and the universe would respond in kind, etc, etc. I haven't thought about how my energy may effect others and their performance much. I just try to stay positive in both my teaching and coaching. Even if things don't go bad. I always feel like, "What good is it for ME to be upset?"

I feel like I know this stuff intuitively, but have never thought about outwardly. I am now wondering how I can use this or test this idea out. How much does my energy output actually effect the outcomes of not only my life, but others as well? Where does the intersection take place?

I preach about having positive thoughts a lot, but I am now wondering how I can use the idea of energy in training and race prep. How can I use this in my daily life to improve my outcomes and the outcomes for those people around me?

I am picturing my energy as these pulsing lines radiating form my body. As such, they will bump into and overlap with other people energy fields and energy lines. If my energy is the right frequency and tone, can it infiltrate and change someone else's? I obviously don't know the science behind this, but I' sure there are many scientists and philosophers and spiritual people that could weigh in on this. For now, for me, I am aware of these ideas and that's a step. I cannot say what direction that step is in, but I want to explore this idea more and see if I can use it.